I reside in a warehouse for troubled souls. My family is helping me reach out to others who may need my wisdom. A wisdom learned from the pain of living with angry, ill mannered humans and from my own errors that brought me to this no win, no way out, unfriendly neighborhood. If any of my writings help you out I would be pleased to hear from you.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Monday, September 22, 2014
Rotting Away...........
I am usually a very positive person. Lately due to feeling physically unfit I believe it has affected my mental positivity.
I have to lay down for an hour after every meal due to weakness.
I have constant headaches for the past several years. I believe due to the need to overuse zinc filled Polident glue. I cant eat without over using it. I can feel it run down my throat. Going without teeth in a prison atmosphere is not an option.
It has become very hard for me to organize my legal material like I used to.
I haven't the finances for the copying and certified mailings I need to request.
I live off crap food as I cannot afford the quality items from commissary.
I am basically rotting away laying in a bunk.
The only thing I have is an occasion book and or magazine from my Mother.
This is what my life has been reduced to. So naturally I have become a bit more frustrated to say the least.
I guess this is nothing new........ sorry
P.S. They drew blood checking me for diabetes. There are a lot of men here with that disease. And the prison does not offer any special diet. I believe it has come out of the low quality substances they feed us. This system has failed miserably regarding the well being of all of the human beings in prisoned here and other place such prisons.
photo from: www.sapphiresmoonbeams.com
I have constant headaches for the past several years. I believe due to the need to overuse zinc filled Polident glue. I cant eat without over using it. I can feel it run down my throat. Going without teeth in a prison atmosphere is not an option.
It has become very hard for me to organize my legal material like I used to.
I haven't the finances for the copying and certified mailings I need to request.
I live off crap food as I cannot afford the quality items from commissary.
I am basically rotting away laying in a bunk.
The only thing I have is an occasion book and or magazine from my Mother.
This is what my life has been reduced to. So naturally I have become a bit more frustrated to say the least.
I guess this is nothing new........ sorry
P.S. They drew blood checking me for diabetes. There are a lot of men here with that disease. And the prison does not offer any special diet. I believe it has come out of the low quality substances they feed us. This system has failed miserably regarding the well being of all of the human beings in prisoned here and other place such prisons.
photo from: www.sapphiresmoonbeams.com
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Please Help Us Get Clutch Home.....
http://www.gofundme.com/ckevg0 Our first website we then moved to the one below.....
http://www.gofundme.com/dh4s64
http://www.gofundme.com/dh4s64
No Word From Family.....
My daughter says she is too busy to email?
I am not stupid. A little dumb sometimes maybe,
but not stupid.
She emails you daily.
Weeks go by without a word to me.
How do you think relationships get built???
I am a firm believer that actions speak louder than words ever will.
I constantly watch and monitor actions of those in here and out there.
You can learn a lot from observations Mom.
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(Photo taken 1993, Clutch, two daughters and lil sister)
(I responded to my son with apologies for my errors as a parent that
have caused him undo pain as his errors have caused his daughters undo pain)
THE PAIN STAYS TILL
IT'S WORKED THROUGH MOM.
I HAD SAME
WENT THRU MUCH HURT AS CHILD
SAME AS HER. NO WAY TO GET PAST TILL
YOU FORGE THAT PATH OF FORGIVENESS.
PAIN STAYS ........I KNOW FROM FIRST HAND EXPERIENCE.
I am not stupid. A little dumb sometimes maybe,
but not stupid.
She emails you daily.
Weeks go by without a word to me.
How do you think relationships get built???
I am a firm believer that actions speak louder than words ever will.
I constantly watch and monitor actions of those in here and out there.
You can learn a lot from observations Mom.
(I responded to my son with apologies for my errors as a parent that
have caused him undo pain as his errors have caused his daughters undo pain)
THE PAIN STAYS TILL
IT'S WORKED THROUGH MOM.
I HAD SAME
WENT THRU MUCH HURT AS CHILD
SAME AS HER. NO WAY TO GET PAST TILL
YOU FORGE THAT PATH OF FORGIVENESS.
PAIN STAYS ........I KNOW FROM FIRST HAND EXPERIENCE.
Scared.............
It's alright Mom,
I get it, I understand...
I just have to get out of here soon.
I DONT WANT TO DIE IN A PLACE LIKE THIS.
I get it, I understand...
I just have to get out of here soon.
I DONT WANT TO DIE IN A PLACE LIKE THIS.
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